Gentle reminder

You survived the abuse and if you are reading this and you are some years in time from the abuse you suffered you may need to reflect upon that fact and know you've survived this far

YOU WILL SURVIVE YOUR RECOVERY AND HEAL UNTIL YOU ARE FREE AND WALKING ON YOUR PATH OF PEACE

What better payback  is there?


Hey liar liar, with Ya pants on fire.  The man on the fiddle
The earth just mocked
Cos the doll dint jump
Over the moon
Little girls don't laugh
When you touch them here
And you touch them there
The dish?  The dish was in your eyes, as you blinded what was mine and made me
Run away in my own mind

You know ally ally aster
The rain ran much faster
Like watching eclectic light
Orchestra.  Larva snorting outta
Ya nose,  Wee Willie Winkie, 
up stairs an' doon stairs in his nicht-gown.  Anything but sleep you devil Incarnate.  Dr imposter the thief  of sweet innocent
Childhood Souls

Rub a dub dub what bad
Things you doth, every fiddle
Was not fine and you were
Not Old King Cole cos you
Turned  little Robyns red breast, Black, playng knick-knack paddy whack on my heaven gates.  You came rolling home.... and I, I was left on the ground without wings,
as the Dove  mourned my love. 
No one carried my coffin
Since you all buried me alive.

Fine!  But, still, ring a ring a rosies a pocket full of Posies atishoo atishoo we all fall
down cos nobody wins in your plague, in the end. But now you're evacuated to the outta Hebrides,  dead to me You don't have the power to be the master of  my 
oceanic waves no more. 

Cos your gone and Ya never coming back.  So here I AM row, row, rowing my boat gently down the stream merrily merrily getting off on the shore of my choice and
if I see a peodophile.. I'll be sure to belt out my rendition of thunder claps and lightning.  Whilst I tell it as it is ... again, until I'm eard, clearly this time.  Cos it aint reining men on this horizon that's for sure! 
Now who has the last laff?
WARNING THIS PAGE MAY BE TRIGGERING TO SOME READERS

To Adult Survivors of Childhood Sexual Abuse

Written By Susan Stubbings

YOUR VOICE MATTERS - YOU MATTER.

The effects of childhood sexual abuse leaves untold damage, scares and confuses  the Child and if not resolved as you grow into an adult all these things leak out in our behaviour, our thoughts, our feelings, our beliefs, our decision making and our self-worth as a person.  All this leaves us even more confused and perhaps judging ourself harshly. 

KNOW YOU  CAN HEAL, it won't be an easy journey but life isn't easy with all these affects
healing is worth any and all effort,  BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTHY, VALUABLE AND LOVEABLE.

You may be struggling with any of the affects listed below and more than likely a combination of them because you were traumatised by what happened to you and trauma leaves untold affects.  If you are now an adult who is  struggling with what happened to you as a Child or have been sexually assulted as an adult and  feel you would like support to make sense of what happened.    Please consider accessing support for yourself as you navigate your healing journey Contact me to begin making sense of the trauma you experienced and together we will find a way to calm your tsunami for you to swim back to your boat and row to your own individual shore to find and walk your  path of peace.


 Know you reacted 'normally' to abnormal situation/s

So what is 'normal' following sexual abuse?

Sexual Abuse (affects)  Susan Stubbings
THIS IS A VERY LONG LIST BUT IF YOU ARE EXPERIENCING ANY OR ALL OF THESE

You may be suffering other effects which are not listed and these affects are absolutely NORMAL for you


YOU ARE  ABSOLUTELY NORMAL

Somebody else made you feel all the feelings above.  Somebody else made you grow up before you were ready.  Somebody else stole your right to your Childhood.  Somebody else stole your right to be a Child.  Somebody else stole your innocence.  Somebody else stole your freedom.  Somebody else made you feel  worthless.  Somebody else stole your right to grow and flourish at your own pace, in your own time.  Somebody else stole your identity or stunted you building an identiy of your own.    Somebody else caged you inside yourself like a fragile bird. Somebody else made you into an aggressive lion roaring out of your head.  Somebody else made you hurt.  Somebody else made you terrified.  Somebody else made you afraid of life.  Somebody else stole your right to question.  Someone else stole your right to life and Somebody else stole and wounded your Soul.

Somebody else silenced you - and somebody else stole your voice. 

Now you are an adult its time to reclaim your voice, reclaim your authentic power and reclaim your authentic Being.

Childhood sexual abuse Susan Stubbings


Be

the

'Sombody'

on your own

horizon!
Please note: It is not necessary to face or relive the trauma you have experienced for you to heal unless this is something you choose to do for your personal healing journey. I would strongly recommend you don't do so alone and encourage you to gain support if that is your choice before you face your trauma.   When
we have been traumatised we need something different in order to heal deeply, trauma is very isolating and we need the oppostite of being alone to heal.  You can heal all the effects the trauma has left you with, without revisiting the original abuse.  Contact me to gain  professional, experienced, knowledgeable and compassionte caring support for you to regain your mental wealth.
Susan Stubbings Doncaster